Every crooked little lie,
bended, connected... circles.
Every star up in the sky,
every hello and goodbye,
every moment by your side,
is the meaning of my life
You got me spinning like a wheel,
oh how you make me feel.
It's more than gold on my finger,
it's six feet down and forever.
'Cause where I am,
is where you begin.
You picked up the pieces,
and put me together.
You're the only part of me unbroken,
and I'm going...
in circles.
bended, connected... circles.
Every star up in the sky,
every hello and goodbye,
every moment by your side,
is the meaning of my life
You got me spinning like a wheel,
oh how you make me feel.
It's more than gold on my finger,
it's six feet down and forever.
'Cause where I am,
is where you begin.
You picked up the pieces,
and put me together.
You're the only part of me unbroken,
and I'm going...
in circles.
so i apologize in advance if some of this post is somewhat vague, but if it bugs you, go away. no one is making you read this. ;)
anywayyyy, this year has been insane. i mean, really the last two or so years have just shocked me to the core in good and bad ways and on so many different levels. i have grown so much as a person. i have truly discovered who i am. i have seen myself at the highest highs, dancing, laughing, singing through life, madly in love, on cloud 9... and i have seen myself sitting on the kitchen floor, in a big empty house, alone, 3000 miles from my family, sobbing, wondering what i am doing with my life and why God has placed me in that place, in that moment, feeling that way. but as sad and depressing as that sounds, it typically only lasts 5-10 minutes and then i get up, brush myself off, and carry on with my day.
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i know people are quick to judge and think, wow she sure isn't handling her husband's deployment very well... but that isn't it. there is so much more to life than what you see or hear about on the internet. things happen that you don't necessarily know how to handle. isn't that how life works? things are thrown at you, BAM. right in your effing face. and you sit there like 'um, whut?' or you sit on the floor crying ;) but either way, you move forward. each minute, hour, day, week, continues to pass. as time passes, you grow, you learn how to tackle what's been thrown at you. you make a choice. a decision to let it impair you permanently, or to push forward with whatever strength you have inside of you and make you stronger, happier, and grow as a person.
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my 30th birthday couldn't have fallen at a better time in my life. while emotionally i was a bit of a mess, it really provided me with some clarity. i have NEVER been more confident about who i am as a person. i know what i am, i know what drives me, i know what keeps me ticking. i have found that there are people in life, actually MOST people, that will tell you otherwise. like seriously dude, how would YOU know who i am? i live ME, every.single.day... and it can be so easy to listen to those people and their words just stick on you. jenna, you're not like that, noooo... you're this way, you're that way, you do this because of this reason... ummm. how bout, no? i look back at my life and i think wow, how and why did i ever ever ever listen to someone else's opinion of me and take that for who i am? it's not until you let those words, ahem, opinions, of others go that you can see who you truly are and be unapologetically you.
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as many of you know, and can see, i am a pretty open book. i share a lot about my life with strangers. but i often do so because i am searching for that someone who might feel the same as i do. with that, you've seen me hitting the gym, HARD. and hitting my healthy eating habits, HARD. but the reason i do so is because i use everyone, the world, if you may, to hold me accountable. today marks one month down of kicking ass and taking names. guess what? i have lost ZERO pounds. yep, ZERO. i don't have crazy before and after pictures because, believe it or not, i didn't take any. all i know is that my mood is through the roof better than it has been, i have more confidence than i have had in quite a long while, and my body is changing in all the right places in all the right ways. consistency trumps perfection.
my overall goal for now is three months of dedication. three months of consistency. i set a non-weight related goal for myself that i wouldn't drink alcohol in august and i did quite well! now in september i plan to go meatless one day a week... ahhhhhhhhhhhh! this should be interesting because, protein. ;) any suggestions on an october goal? afterall, halloween marks my last day of three months of consistency!
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cheers to blogging!
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my 30th birthday couldn't have fallen at a better time in my life. while emotionally i was a bit of a mess, it really provided me with some clarity. i have NEVER been more confident about who i am as a person. i know what i am, i know what drives me, i know what keeps me ticking. i have found that there are people in life, actually MOST people, that will tell you otherwise. like seriously dude, how would YOU know who i am? i live ME, every.single.day... and it can be so easy to listen to those people and their words just stick on you. jenna, you're not like that, noooo... you're this way, you're that way, you do this because of this reason... ummm. how bout, no? i look back at my life and i think wow, how and why did i ever ever ever listen to someone else's opinion of me and take that for who i am? it's not until you let those words, ahem, opinions, of others go that you can see who you truly are and be unapologetically you.
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as many of you know, and can see, i am a pretty open book. i share a lot about my life with strangers. but i often do so because i am searching for that someone who might feel the same as i do. with that, you've seen me hitting the gym, HARD. and hitting my healthy eating habits, HARD. but the reason i do so is because i use everyone, the world, if you may, to hold me accountable. today marks one month down of kicking ass and taking names. guess what? i have lost ZERO pounds. yep, ZERO. i don't have crazy before and after pictures because, believe it or not, i didn't take any. all i know is that my mood is through the roof better than it has been, i have more confidence than i have had in quite a long while, and my body is changing in all the right places in all the right ways. consistency trumps perfection.
my overall goal for now is three months of dedication. three months of consistency. i set a non-weight related goal for myself that i wouldn't drink alcohol in august and i did quite well! now in september i plan to go meatless one day a week... ahhhhhhhhhhhh! this should be interesting because, protein. ;) any suggestions on an october goal? afterall, halloween marks my last day of three months of consistency!
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cheers to blogging!
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