i changed the name. well... kind of. i added something to it. it's now called the 12 days of Christmas challenge/ FIRM UP THE FLAB.
i don't know if it's because i need a tan real real reeaaalll freakin' bad or because it's a harsh reality of being just a "runner" for the past few months but i feel flabby. i feel flabby and i don't like it!!
soooo today i woke up to a text from a coworker saying "hey are you still going today?" i forgot that i was supposed to go to lunch with them all at chilis today. ahem. food fail, AGAIN?! i hate eating out. i'm not even kidding. i do it but i hate it. i can't say no to peer pressure. i can rarely say no to bad foods in my house as well. so i'm going to rant for the next few seconds and then i'm going to admit to everyone the loads of crap i have eaten today. (where's my willpower??).
ahem. soooo when i started losing weight/changing my lifestyle, i just never ever everrr put myself in a situation where i needed to eat out. if i did, i wouldn't eat. at that point, i was UNHEALTHY enough for people to forgive me for saying no i dont want to go or yes ill go but im not eating. now i feel like people that have known me since i was 200+lbs tell me i need to cut myself some slack and/or live a little because i worked so hard blah blah blah blah blah. i don't want to hear that, sorry. i have successfully maintained my weight since last april. but i don't feel like i have ever reached the point where i wanted to be. and lately, my willpower just hasn't been there. it's hard to say no to people. also, buying/cooking unhealthy junk, even if it is for other people just doesn't fly in my book. when i lived with my brother, it was easy not to eat it because i just didn't buy it or cook it. now that i live with my sister and my mom, there are cookies and cheez-its and goldfish crackers and just a whole lotta crap that i wouldn't normally have in front of me so it was never an option before. FRUSTRATED. :(
soooo now for my oink oink day. (mind you, i am human. to be honest, i think i eat better than most people in the world. at least most people i know. and im adjusting to a lot of recent life changes. excuses or not, i need to JUST SAY NO. i think it's back to pinching my flab when i wanna eat a cookie so i just dont do it!).
breakfast - i had my normal egg whites/egg combo with mushrooms and only a half of a sandwich thin (gave the other half to my nephew) with 1/3 cup oatmeal with cinnamon and truvia. a huge glass of water as well.
about three hours later i went to chilis. i ordered an alcoholic beverage. a vodka/red bull. (yum) yes, it was after 12. yes, i planned on going to the gym a few hours after lunch. smart? probably not. do i do it everyday? no. once again, i'm HUMAN. i also had a small side salad with a couple drops of citrus balsamic vinaigrette (i'm not a HUGE fan of dressing), 10 french fries (yes, i counted as they were going in my mouth thinking of how i had to own up to all of you after), and i ordered half a california club sandwich (no mayo). it was wheat toast, swiss, ham, turkey, avocado, tomato, bacon, lettuce. i ate three bites of it whole then opened it and ate the avocado, bacon, turkey, ham and lettuce and left the cheese and the bun. i also drank three glasses of water and almost peed my pants on the drive home from vista to escondido so i literally had to stop at target to pee and figured i might as well return a few things i had been driving around with in the back of my car haha.
next it was gym time. i came home, i changed, i drank my optimum nutrition essential amiN.O. energy (yes, i bought a pre-workout. i like it. it helps me sweat and reduces muscle soreness. i don't take it every time i workout but i thought today seemed like a good day) ohhh and then my smart smart brain said ooh look my sister dipped some wafer cookies (you know those strawberry, vanilla, chocolate ones?) in some white chocolate! let's eat THREE. you would think that after changing into my gym clothes and feeling extra flabby/chubby/bloated/PMSy i would have refrained but no. i had three.
i proceeded to drive to murrieta to NC3. i knew i wanted to run three miles or so and after feeling super sore from my workout yesterday, i wasn't sure what i wanted to do so i did a mini ab combination. it was fun and i was sweaaaattty (prob from the crap i ate). here's how it went:
5 min warm-up jog on the treadmill (i usually stretch out sore arm muscles while im doing this)
three rounds of this lovely combo:
1. legs straight up toe-touch crunches with a 15lb kettle bell. i lay on my back, legs in the air holding the kettle bell and i reach across to the outside of either toe. i do 15 on each side so 30 total.
2. WITHOUT RESTING i sit up and do 30 russian twists with the same kettle bell. 30 total meaning 15 on each side.
3. WITHOUT RESTING i flip over hands on the black side of the bosu and do a 1min plank lifting one leg for 30 seconds and then switching legs for the last 30 seconds. (remember just two inches or so off the ground).
i usually rest a min or less between sets. i was super sweaty after that!
then i got my bloated butt up and went to the TRX. i swear NO ONE at that gym uses the TRX. it's brand spankin new and i'm like a kid in a candy shop with that thing. if only they knew what they were missing out on! :) here's a video of what i did with it.
after that i went back to the treadmill to run. YAWN. i was so bored i stopped after two miles. i literally run on that thing looking all around at people, watching them lift, watching them run, watching them walk in the door of the gym. it was awful i had the worst ADD today. so at 2 miles i pushed end on my iPhone and walked and stretched for a couple minutes.
i got in my car, drank my protein shake and headed home. when i got home i was starving. what was on the counter? oh, you know, FRESH BAKED CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES. what the heck little sister! what are you trying to do to me?!!?! i heated up some chicken and veggies from last night. ok - not "some" - a heaping plate full in hopes to avoid my desire for those cookies. i ate almost all of it until i was stuffed and then ate two small cookies. F-A-I-L. i did drink a lot more water today than i have lately. win #1.
so what's my plan for the remainder of the evening? i need to shower, i'm going to head to barnes and noble to buy a couple books for my nephew and help my friend write a resume. it's only 6:30 which means i will definitely need a snack later. what will i eat? i have turkey meatloaf muffins in the fridge, i have carrots, i have chicken, string cheese, and many other things available. NO MORE COOKIES.
tomorrow it's up an at 'em early to the 6:15am class in temecula and i'm finally going to get my new tires put on my car while i babysit from 10-2.
happy oink oink tuesday!
2 down, 10 more to go!
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