taking over.

well hello. long time no see! or talk? orrrr whatever...

i'm finally back. and this is going to be regular again because i LOVE to blog and i need to do more of what i love. without going into too much detail, the past few months i've completely lost myself. that strong, happy, confident jenna has been flushed down the toilet. well guess what, i'm DONE living life that way. i'm taking control of my life. i'm in charge. i will no longer rely on anyone else to try and make myself happy. the only person that can make me happy is me. i'm going to go back to doing more of what i love and giving myself more time rather than putting myself into everyone else and sacrificing me. this is my life. it cannot be lived miserably, it WILL be lived happily and to the fullest.

where am i currently at? well, i'm completely out of shape but at my lowest weight, EVER. ok not ever but maybe since i was five. ahaha! but the entire reason my weight is so low is because i have absolutely no muscle left on my body. i had my gallbladder removed and that landed me in the hospital for five days along with 3 1/2 weeks of no physical activity. so now, i'm rebuilding. i did crazily run a half marathon two days after my doctor released me, but i haven't been able to walk straight for a week now from it! my current fitness goals are to rebuild muscle and train for and run another half marathon in august. i just registered for it last night. i also currently have no gym membership. which leads me to something else i need to address!

i no longer am a trainer at 24 :( whaaaa. i really enjoyed working there but my life's chaos got the best of me and i had to leave. fortunately, they said i'm always welcome back. i truly believe i was successful when i was there and i miss some of my clients dearly. i just couldn't financially commit to working full time there and trying to open up my hours. the hours i did work, i was actually booked with clients, but i didn't have enough free time with my teaching job. sooo yeah, no gym membership right now. i think i might go back to crunch. i liked it there and it's on my way to and from work which is very convenient. also- i'm going to start training on the side on my own. last summer my bootcamps were a blast so i'm working on putting those together again and some private training as well. can't wait!!

so yeah, that's where i'm at, a little of where i've been and where i'm going! hope everyone's been doing awesome :) i've missed you all!