turtles, fish, and a whole lotta laughs

i've [finally] moved. thanks to the help of mister brian cunningham, i got all my stuff moved out of anthony's house in temecula and i'm now "settled" in to my mom's house in escondido. i never thought this day would come. i never imagined moving back to my mom's house let alone good ol' esco. BUT! i have to say, it's nice here. now that all my things are in my room (kind of) and my bed's made, i'm happy.

i'm sitting here in my bed, cozy, with a candle lit, listening to Christmas music, blogging, about to start some laundry, take a shower, read and study, food is cooked for the week. BIG SIGH. i can finally relax a little.

as for my sickness, ears are still bothering me a bit. i tried running three miles on friday night at the gym, killed my pace, but my lungs just aren't ready for it yet. i took a two hour nap today because i was just beat by the time i got home from grocery shopping and i cooked my chili. it is so strange feeling like this. i have never felt like my body couldn't kick a cold but i've just been struggling to feel better. i want to workout and run SO BAD but i'm so afraid of relapsing. i plan on running a few miles this week, NOT pushing my pace but just to get the mileage in. i have a half marathon coming up in four weeks! ahhhh.... i haven't prepared at all. i'm debating of whether or not to eat the cost and skip it. i wanted to do it SO bad but my body is telling me to take a break. maybe i can start lifting again and take a few weeks break on running. :X i'm on the verge of tears just typing that. running is my life, it's become a part of me. but the way i'm feeling right now, there's no way i'm going to feel prepared to run it in four weeks. i'm just so hard on myself and i feel like it might take a load off of my shoulders if i tell myself i'm not going to do it. :'( HOWEVER, after typing that i went on the race website and it got me all excited to run. ha (bipolar much?)... decisions decisions... 

i did get some killer new running shoes that i'm super proud of. i ran in them on friday and they felt great. i got a lot of things crossed off my list i posted last week, i'm definitely working in the right direction. so my next step is getting 100% better so i can decide if i'm going to run or not. ahhhhh... things are going to be okay.

it's so crazy how life throws things at you. i have to say, i love my life. i love the people in it and the things i choose to do. i'm so very blessed and thankful to have such an amazing group of people and family to support me and be there for me. living with my mom, sister, and jeremy for a few months is going to be fun. i might have turtles and fish on my walls, but i'm cozy and happy. and i haven't laughed as much as i have in the last 24hrs in months.

 thank you for sharing your bedroom with me little jers, thank you laura for sharing a room with jer for me, thank you momma for letting me live with you again and thank you for moving all my stuff for me mister brian!